hello friends! mz here aka zahra aka littlebrownbabe aka that bitch who used to have a mildly popular nsfw tumblr and would disappear regularly and then deleted out of the blue without warning
i honestly don’t even know where to begin here - when i started the blog that was littlebrownbabe, it was 2014. i was so different then. i don’t even remember how i got my start. even when i would go away for months on end and return a changed and different person, i had an audience to return to who knew where i had been and had seen me grow. starting from scratch feels strange.
i’m not positive anyone will even really remember my old blog (part of me hopes they do - that’s the part that craves validation that led me to creating the old blog and creating this new one in the first place. part of me hopes they don’t, for the very reasons i deleted that blog in the first place).
i’m ~restarting~ this process because i (a) miss the community of friends i’d found (b) miss having somewhere semi-anonymous where i could talk about the things i’ve been taught not to talk about © okay let me be perfectly honest here i miss posting nudes and getting attention listen i’m not a perfect person
i can’t envision a reality where this blog gets anywhere even remotely near as popular as littlebrownbabe was, and i hope it doesn’t. a large part of why i deleted/would disappear on that blog was the Pressure i felt to perform to some standard that had been set for me - that i had set for myself. right now i’m talking to an audience of 0, and that is perfectly cool and fine by me. i just missed having this space.
the change in url is to distance myself from that old blog, to ward off the kind of people that old url used to attract, and, well, i thought it was cute and apt
ANYWAY im gonna go, message people now that i’ve missed and hopefully they remember who tf i am since it’s been genuinely months